I've never had one of these dreams, not and remembered it. But this time... I can still feel on my arm where I was trying to bite him to get him away. I can still see the mark.
Dad attacking me, rentlessly following, chaseing me when I was able to get away. Mostly not doing anything till the end (this was after the biting oddly enough) when he started to do kung fu at me... I think some part of me tried to change the dream and it didn't work.
Fuck.
This I don't need. I'm still trying to deal with him, to use him for the things I want/need can't yet do without. This puts me dependant on him, this puts me in a bad position related to him. This is not good I guess.
Well, I guess I know weather I'm gonna visit him before next week.
Reposted from my old thing.
3 comments:
Hi, I know you were upset for the next day too. I am sorry it was so hard on you. I hope you will be able to get a distance from all of it in the coming months.
BOY I"m glad y'all are coming up this way. :(
Was it a psychic bite or a real one?
It was a real one. I still had teeth marks as I was writing the original post.
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